Motivation

The motivation to get out of bed is waning. I can’t say that I’ve been bored by being off work with the confinement. I don’t get bored, but I do lose motivation to do things.

I’m wondering if that’s the same thing? I do ten minutes of sitting meditation before doing 45 minutes of yoga, and I do around 1 1/2 hours of exercise per day (usually a long walk where I can avoid people, but sometimes a bike ride).

I do these thing without negotiating with myself, so it’s not a matter of getting motivated. However, I’m really losing motivation to start new projects and keep doing new things. I should re-learn to use a video editing tool. I’ve realized from teaching remotely that I need to make online lessons more appealing, and I don’t have the tools or the skills to make a more interesting “product” (I’m selling grammar here, folks, it’s got to look good or no one is going to watch it.) But spending time looking for a good app that isn’t too complicated but can do more than IMovie is taking some time. Then I need to learn to use it. (There are going to be some tests going onto the blog, so bear with me.)

I’m not bored, but the things I want to do and enjoy doing are not giving me the usual kick, as well. Although maybe I shouldn’t be too hard on myself? I tell myself that I haven’t been reading (books, in paper form) but I’ve listened to two books on tape while cooking foods that I’ve never attempted before (I can now say that I can make a good veggie lasagna, quiches, carrot cake and almond cookies).

Maybe I should just chill out more….